Shrunk?

3rd week into my new job......

I was trying to get my work done on on mon but got interrupted by numerous other things. I was so frustrated that at the end of the day, I didn't really get anything completed. sigh.....things are just so hectic around my office. i really need time to get used to it and try to do my best.

Although it was a tiring day, I still went for band practice and managed to meet cher and the others for dinner. Mon's practice was different. My conductor made an arrangement for an Australian band to come and have an exchange with us. They are not as good as us but they are also passonate players. The whole session was fun and we got to play a few pieces together and also heard them play as well. When it was our turn to play, one of the aust players asked whether we enjoy playing music. erm......there was a pause when she asked them. Personally, I do enjoy playing music and that is why I am still in the band scene. However, as a person who has went through the singapore education system, sometimes i feel that we are not really enjoying the music. For my generation, it was more like a kiasu syndrome. Being a band member in school or even for any other CCA, we don't seem to be as passionate in whatever we do because we were doing it for the sake of performing well. I have friends who were in band with me back in sec sch or poly and some of them are just play music without any feelings. To them its just a cca. With passion, everything will just come naturally. and I wish that next time someone when someone asked that same question, I hope everyone will say "yes" without hesitating.

Yesterday was another bad day at work. In the end, my boss asked my assistant to help me with press release as she is more familiar with the format and I felt so bad.

I went for band practice anyway despite feeling down. Met cher and ei and for dinner. Only me and L were present in my section. I was still feeling a bit pissed with him. He insisted on playing the important parts in el camino real. That really upset me even more. He did improve over the months but never once have I heard him reach a high F comfortably. That is why I am having doubts over him playing the parts but he don't seem to realise it, thinking he is doing fine and will do well with time. Problem is, we don't have time. Lately I realised that the best player or the next better player should play the solo in order to put up a good performace and not necessarily to prove that you can do it.

During break time, ed came over and said that i seemed to have shrunk, meaning that I lost weight. Well, a lot of people have been telling me that lately. When I went for my medical check up two weeks ago, i weighed at 48kg. I have not been below the 50 mark for the past 12 years. Not sure if this is a good thing.....

Poured my heart out to cher after practice as the whole day has been so sucky and I started thinking again. sigh......I need to be stronger. And then it rained heavily. spent money to take cab back...arrgh!

Today was a better day. I managed to finish some work at the office and finally sent the newsletter to print. Yeah!

22 days to Ay Caramba.....

9 Jan 2008 10.00pm