A Short Day

Slept till noon today.....have not slept so much for a long time. The day went by in a flash...

I met my financial planner earlier for a chat. She looks like her normal self although I did feel a little that something is not right. We had a quick bite and then settled in her office. As I meddled with my stuff, she suddenly broke the news to me that she broke up with her boyfriend. I was surprised. It happened a week ago but she has taken it well and is moving on. She told me that in life, a setback will not affect you tremendously if you have all aspects of your life covered and strong ties in your other relationships such as family and friends. She has a successful career and close relationship with her family and friends. That is why she can bounce back and move on. This is something that I want to achieve. Work towards a good life by maintaining strong relationships with my love ones and build up my career. I may not be that close with my family but I think i will make do with whatever I have. I don't think I can have everything in life and should learn to be content with it. She told me to think through what I want to achieve in life and even told me to consider being a planner in her company. "Think through these two days and let me know" Hmm....

I'm having wierd dreams lately. I kept dreaming about this guy whom I had several conversations and encounters in my dream and it gave me a happy feeling. Last night I dreamt that I was in my ex-company office, talking to an ex-colleague and then this guy appeared out of nowhere. He was feeling unwell and I helped him to the doctor's. He was thankful to me. I wonder whether dreams mean anything and what do all these dreams indicate? Is something good or bad going to happen to me?

This could be good.......

15 march 2008 10.05pm

Have U ever thought of it?

I had a bad dream the previous night. It was really wierd but I dreamt that my mum passed away. TOUCHWOOD! In the dream, my friends were with my mum in a car and went to a place where there were firecrackers. I can't remember how she was hurt and I didn't get to see it at all but the next thing was my friend telling me my mum and another friend were dead. All i remembered was the pain i felt in my heart when i heard that. i just couldn't believe it but of course, its a dream. when i opened my eyes, i could still remember the dream. so surreal....but then again, as in every passage of life, we have to leave this world one day. sometimes i do wonder what i will do or how i'm going to handle it if that day ever comes. i may not be close to my parents but i still love them. its a strange relationship with my family. after all, they brought me up and i want to take care of them. Sometimes I do wonder how it feels to die.

I watched My Blueberry Nights yesterday. The reviews for the movie was not fantastic but I find it engaging, heartwarming and touching. I found I could relate to the whole story in the movie, especially the leading female character. Sometimes, to be let go might hurt more than you imagined. Also, never take your love ones for granted. Cherish them and make every single day count. you will never know when they might leave.

my friend commented that the pay i got for my new job seems a bit low. well it was my expected pay. although its lower compared to my other friends who are also doing marketing, i didn't ask for a higher amount as i feel that i am not that well experienced yet. i don't like to disappoint people in my work performance so i guess the pay that i am getting now could justify my experience. i will definitely earn more as i work longer. right now, its more important that i learn in my job.

The new year is coming. 2007 has been bittersweet for me. Yup, i did learn a lot this year but i did wish things have turn out differently. Made a wrong move in my career and with the new job, i hope it will be a good decesion. I also lost a friend this year and i will always remember him as the most "on" sym player ever. So when i look at the flute section, missing of that piccolo, i will always be reminded of him. Life is so fragile, so are relationships. Thank you to all those who stood by me. i'm grateful for it.

30 Dec 2007 8.54pm

11.47am

In the midst of doing my report but just can't seem to concentrate. Suddenly remembered a lot of things from the past, can't figure out why I am thinking of all these things....
When you are bothered by something, they will normally appear in your dreams. I take this as a sign. As long as you don't face it and get it resolved, it will remain as a knot in your heart. There are some things I want to do before the year ends. Hopefully I get to see this friend of mine in school within this few weeks before the term ends. If not, the knot will just remain there. What if some things are better left unsaid?

9 Nov 2005