I was on the train this morning. There was an elderly man who sat opposite me. His hand was carrying a plastic bag of takeaways. He is quite old, full head of grey hair and looked bored and tired. He reminded me of my dad, who is looking tired these days due to work. He is very old already but still works to earn some income for the family and also to kill time. Seeing him like that does make me feel bad sometimes. Especially since he hurt his right foot.
A year ago, he fractured his right foot at work while climbing a slppery ladder to get his stuff. He fell. I even remembered the date. It was new year's eve eve 30 Dec 06. I even remembered I was at Vicocity that day with my friends to catch a movie. We finished dinner then headed to a cafe for drinks. While i was queueing at the counter, i saw a missed call from my dad. called him and he told me in a weak voice that he is heading to the hospital in an ambulance, saying he broke his leg. he told me not to worry and call back later. i was just shocked and too stunned for words and i just said ok, hung up and stood there not knowing what to do. i msg my brother and he rushed down to a&e. i was still feeling stunned, thinking maybe its was not that bad. my friends saw the worried look on my face as we sat at our table and assured me that it will be ok and whether i need to leave soon.
after stoning for a while, we left and i headed to the hospital. the doctor said the fracture is quite complicated and requires surgery and must be hospitalised. my bro and i arranged for him to be stayed in and got stressed up over which ward to stay and if we stay at the higher category, need to pay an expensive deposit first. in the end, he stayed at a cheaper class so that we have some time to decide whether to switch wards later. it was very late already. i was tired and also sad to see him in great pain.
a few days later, he went for the surgery and stayed there for about 2 weeks in total. throughout that 2 weeks, we took turns to visit him to keep him company and bring food and some entertainment for him. i was actually concerned about him at that time. i was never close to my dad but when the accident happened, i actually bothered to travel all the way from woodlands ( my workplace at that time) to outram after work just to keep him company for an hour and so till he is about to sleep and then go home. although he said it was not necessary to vist him since my mum visits him almost everyday but i wanted to. after he got discharged, he required a lot of assistance at home. every morning i will prepare a simple breakfast for him, helped him get washed, give him his breakfast and medicine, get ready for work and then leave home for office. and this routine continued for about a few months. as everyone was out at work, there is no one at home. sometime i will worry about him at the office. That was a stressful period for me. besides my dad, i had to handle work and band practices as a concert was coming then. tiring....sigh....well, that was a year ago. his foot is better now but walks with a limp and complains of aches and pains during rainy days. sometimes when he is feeling unwell or is experiencing pain in his foot again, i feel helpless as i don't know to help him. i hope things will get better in my family. i should really cherish my parents as they have taken care of me all these years.
i met up with yh, 3sa and kel yesterday in town. kel bought us esprit bags from his hk trip. so sweet of him! thank you kel!! i got mine in a dark orange colour. as usual, kel was late so yh, 3sa and i went to coffee club first and we chatted about work, relationships and stuff. 3sa said a relationship must have assurance or a sense of security from each other. a relationship where either party don't require any security or assurance is fake or if one party don't give any assurance, the relationship will not work out as this is an essential aspect. its like either party don't feel anything or treasure his or her partner at all if both don't require any form of assurance from each other. *enlightenment* how true.....i am the oldest among them but sometimes i am so impressed at how much these girlfriends of mine can teach me when it comes to relationship woes. Gals, i really don't know what to do without u all!
we left town and i headed to js's dessert shop at potong pasir. he started the business with a few of his friends a few months back. i waited for gm, jx and xh to try the desserts. its not bad. being the only dessert shop in the estate, i hope that his business will do well!
the whole group of us went to zq's concert at nafa and then we had steamboat for supper. i was pretty quiet during the train ride home, feeling quite tired. as js and i walked home, he mentioned that the past year has been difficult for him because he gave up his permanent job for the business. i also agreed with him. the past year was not that smooth for me but i must say there were plenty of sweet memories as well. and i said to js that i hope this year will be a better year for everyone. :) be determine in everything you do and things will go your way....
A year ago, he fractured his right foot at work while climbing a slppery ladder to get his stuff. He fell. I even remembered the date. It was new year's eve eve 30 Dec 06. I even remembered I was at Vicocity that day with my friends to catch a movie. We finished dinner then headed to a cafe for drinks. While i was queueing at the counter, i saw a missed call from my dad. called him and he told me in a weak voice that he is heading to the hospital in an ambulance, saying he broke his leg. he told me not to worry and call back later. i was just shocked and too stunned for words and i just said ok, hung up and stood there not knowing what to do. i msg my brother and he rushed down to a&e. i was still feeling stunned, thinking maybe its was not that bad. my friends saw the worried look on my face as we sat at our table and assured me that it will be ok and whether i need to leave soon.
after stoning for a while, we left and i headed to the hospital. the doctor said the fracture is quite complicated and requires surgery and must be hospitalised. my bro and i arranged for him to be stayed in and got stressed up over which ward to stay and if we stay at the higher category, need to pay an expensive deposit first. in the end, he stayed at a cheaper class so that we have some time to decide whether to switch wards later. it was very late already. i was tired and also sad to see him in great pain.
a few days later, he went for the surgery and stayed there for about 2 weeks in total. throughout that 2 weeks, we took turns to visit him to keep him company and bring food and some entertainment for him. i was actually concerned about him at that time. i was never close to my dad but when the accident happened, i actually bothered to travel all the way from woodlands ( my workplace at that time) to outram after work just to keep him company for an hour and so till he is about to sleep and then go home. although he said it was not necessary to vist him since my mum visits him almost everyday but i wanted to. after he got discharged, he required a lot of assistance at home. every morning i will prepare a simple breakfast for him, helped him get washed, give him his breakfast and medicine, get ready for work and then leave home for office. and this routine continued for about a few months. as everyone was out at work, there is no one at home. sometime i will worry about him at the office. That was a stressful period for me. besides my dad, i had to handle work and band practices as a concert was coming then. tiring....sigh....well, that was a year ago. his foot is better now but walks with a limp and complains of aches and pains during rainy days. sometimes when he is feeling unwell or is experiencing pain in his foot again, i feel helpless as i don't know to help him. i hope things will get better in my family. i should really cherish my parents as they have taken care of me all these years.
i met up with yh, 3sa and kel yesterday in town. kel bought us esprit bags from his hk trip. so sweet of him! thank you kel!! i got mine in a dark orange colour. as usual, kel was late so yh, 3sa and i went to coffee club first and we chatted about work, relationships and stuff. 3sa said a relationship must have assurance or a sense of security from each other. a relationship where either party don't require any security or assurance is fake or if one party don't give any assurance, the relationship will not work out as this is an essential aspect. its like either party don't feel anything or treasure his or her partner at all if both don't require any form of assurance from each other. *enlightenment* how true.....i am the oldest among them but sometimes i am so impressed at how much these girlfriends of mine can teach me when it comes to relationship woes. Gals, i really don't know what to do without u all!
we left town and i headed to js's dessert shop at potong pasir. he started the business with a few of his friends a few months back. i waited for gm, jx and xh to try the desserts. its not bad. being the only dessert shop in the estate, i hope that his business will do well!
the whole group of us went to zq's concert at nafa and then we had steamboat for supper. i was pretty quiet during the train ride home, feeling quite tired. as js and i walked home, he mentioned that the past year has been difficult for him because he gave up his permanent job for the business. i also agreed with him. the past year was not that smooth for me but i must say there were plenty of sweet memories as well. and i said to js that i hope this year will be a better year for everyone. :) be determine in everything you do and things will go your way....
"We are, if anything, creatures of habit,
drawn to the safety and comfort of the familiar.
But what happens when the familiar becomes unsafe?
When the fear that we have been desperately trying
to avoid finds us where we live?"
Opening excerpts from the drama Heroes (season 1, episode 9 Homecoming)
Yes, the fear has found me. But i am fighting it and I will win. I will find familiarity again. and its happening soon.....
6 Jan 2008 10.43pm
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