Our first Gold award! How surreal for a band that is three years old. Through hard work and tears, we finally earned our first ever award to be recognised by everyone.
Days before the competition, i was anxious because i was so afraid that i will crack. i did not sound as good during the last few rehearsals and even during the warm ups at SA yesterday, i also did not sound that good during the run throughs...a bit worried. when it was time for break, i played through my solo one more time and glosz yelled at me to stop, saying something that if its meant to happen, it will happen. sigh...sounded ike a bad omen to me.....Received anneson's good luck sms during the run throughs...
so we just relaxed durign the break, ate something and then had trouble finding a proper place to change as the girls' toilet are all locked. i bought lollipops for some of the band pple, but should have bought more as it was not enough. after tuning and chords, huimin, brenda, derek and i took huimin's car to vch and then realized that its a bad idea to have the whole euph section in the same vehicle..in case something happens and the whole section is not at vch....but luckily that didnt happen.
when we got to vch, tj just finished performing and we waited outside victoria theatre for our turn to tune in the room. i saw ronny looking flustered and so i asked if he ran here. he had performance earlier and was rushing to meet us at vch. while waiting for our turn to be tuned, everyone took photos and had fun at it. then i received aloy's sms, wishing me good luck and not be gan jiong. later at the tuning room, aaron decided to give ronny the other solo for watsoever things and he played through the part on the spot. sounded good and everyone cheered and clapped for him. just before we left the room, me and benda shared a mini mars bar just to feel happy..haha...
at the corridor, i was feeling bit nervous already...kept thinking thought the solo...wished the others good luck before we went on stage..a bit messy on stage cos a chair at the back row fell just as my section was going up the platform. then glosz came out, chords, and played second suite. first bar sounded ok.....then A, B C, D, and i got ready for E...until i mispitched the high G! oh no...just move, still sound ok, although my heart was beating wildly and i wonder if they could hear the shiver in my tone....the whole suite sounded unstable....then came my second chance...sounded much better, until i mispitched again!!! Aaarrhhgg!!!!! never mind...move on....and we finished. was feeling down already...but i smiled and gave huimin a squeeze to wish her good luck for her solo in watsoever things! she was great man! i feel that the whole piece sounded good, although some parts could be better...there were moments i glanced up at the judges to look at their expression but i couldnt tell anything. could see mohli in the circle seats and ching siong, listening intently.
when it was over, we moved out and the others started congratulating huimin on her solo and i asked ronny if i sounded very nervous (nervrato). he said no, but i thought otherwise. peihsia said i sounded good, but i don't think so.feeling shitty about my solo. i saw joseph on our way outside the hall, he smiled at me and i asked whether he heard us. he did. went downstairs to keep instruments, still feeling very down. my expression was stone and huimin asked why i looked so tense as we gathered round to hear glosz speak. he thanked all the soloists and when he say thanks to the euph solo for second suite and everyone clapped, i wasn't sure if i should acknowledge as i just shook my head....sigh....
still controlling.....went to the toilet and then to the hall to join them for the results.....still controlling until zahid told me that akari was looking for me. Akari? i was so surprise to hear that name. made my way to the back and when i saw her, just couldnt hold it anymore. we went outside and tried to talk, but i was too upset. She consoled me and i tried to ask her oher things to keep my mind off it...then moh li appeared and said its ok, told me not to be silly...
results finally came. we got gold and in 4th place. TJ is the top band. they are really good. pple started to console me....peihsia, huimin, anneson, jinsong, chris, audrey...sigh....might sound silly but i thought if i played beter, the judges would give better marks. even ching siong said its alright to me, thati shouldnt take it too hard. saw twain before we left and i congratulated him. said thanks to ronny and chris. am i still feeling sad over the solo? yes, of cos, becos i felt i could have play it better,i felt i have let someone down despite all the effort i put in but thinking back, i feel i have improved and the solo sounded not bad, except for two mispitched notes. the whole experience made me want to continue playing as long as i can.
i guess i came out of this competition knowing that if i set my mind to something, i will achieve it. it all lies in your attitude and mentality. negativity will only bring failure and only being positive and believing in yourself would lead you to reach your goal. i guess the breaking point came when yuxuan was fustrated with me and put me down during that rehearsal. ph is right that it was a blessing in disguise cos it pushed me to work harder.
i have to thank everyone for their encouragement and advice all these while. thank you huimin, you are my light in the section. you pulled me up when i fell. without you, i'm not sure if i was still playing for the com. thank you ph, for your advice and encouragement. you are always the wise and understanding one. thank you yuxuan, for teaching me and pushing me. i must have been a very difficult player to teach. i hope i did not let you down. and to all my sympho friends, you guys are the best!! i'm sure we will continue to do well in the years to come. maybe we can aim for the next wmc? : )
21 July 2006 12.15am
Days before the competition, i was anxious because i was so afraid that i will crack. i did not sound as good during the last few rehearsals and even during the warm ups at SA yesterday, i also did not sound that good during the run throughs...a bit worried. when it was time for break, i played through my solo one more time and glosz yelled at me to stop, saying something that if its meant to happen, it will happen. sigh...sounded ike a bad omen to me.....Received anneson's good luck sms during the run throughs...
so we just relaxed durign the break, ate something and then had trouble finding a proper place to change as the girls' toilet are all locked. i bought lollipops for some of the band pple, but should have bought more as it was not enough. after tuning and chords, huimin, brenda, derek and i took huimin's car to vch and then realized that its a bad idea to have the whole euph section in the same vehicle..in case something happens and the whole section is not at vch....but luckily that didnt happen.
when we got to vch, tj just finished performing and we waited outside victoria theatre for our turn to tune in the room. i saw ronny looking flustered and so i asked if he ran here. he had performance earlier and was rushing to meet us at vch. while waiting for our turn to be tuned, everyone took photos and had fun at it. then i received aloy's sms, wishing me good luck and not be gan jiong. later at the tuning room, aaron decided to give ronny the other solo for watsoever things and he played through the part on the spot. sounded good and everyone cheered and clapped for him. just before we left the room, me and benda shared a mini mars bar just to feel happy..haha...
at the corridor, i was feeling bit nervous already...kept thinking thought the solo...wished the others good luck before we went on stage..a bit messy on stage cos a chair at the back row fell just as my section was going up the platform. then glosz came out, chords, and played second suite. first bar sounded ok.....then A, B C, D, and i got ready for E...until i mispitched the high G! oh no...just move, still sound ok, although my heart was beating wildly and i wonder if they could hear the shiver in my tone....the whole suite sounded unstable....then came my second chance...sounded much better, until i mispitched again!!! Aaarrhhgg!!!!! never mind...move on....and we finished. was feeling down already...but i smiled and gave huimin a squeeze to wish her good luck for her solo in watsoever things! she was great man! i feel that the whole piece sounded good, although some parts could be better...there were moments i glanced up at the judges to look at their expression but i couldnt tell anything. could see mohli in the circle seats and ching siong, listening intently.
when it was over, we moved out and the others started congratulating huimin on her solo and i asked ronny if i sounded very nervous (nervrato). he said no, but i thought otherwise. peihsia said i sounded good, but i don't think so.feeling shitty about my solo. i saw joseph on our way outside the hall, he smiled at me and i asked whether he heard us. he did. went downstairs to keep instruments, still feeling very down. my expression was stone and huimin asked why i looked so tense as we gathered round to hear glosz speak. he thanked all the soloists and when he say thanks to the euph solo for second suite and everyone clapped, i wasn't sure if i should acknowledge as i just shook my head....sigh....
still controlling.....went to the toilet and then to the hall to join them for the results.....still controlling until zahid told me that akari was looking for me. Akari? i was so surprise to hear that name. made my way to the back and when i saw her, just couldnt hold it anymore. we went outside and tried to talk, but i was too upset. She consoled me and i tried to ask her oher things to keep my mind off it...then moh li appeared and said its ok, told me not to be silly...
results finally came. we got gold and in 4th place. TJ is the top band. they are really good. pple started to console me....peihsia, huimin, anneson, jinsong, chris, audrey...sigh....might sound silly but i thought if i played beter, the judges would give better marks. even ching siong said its alright to me, thati shouldnt take it too hard. saw twain before we left and i congratulated him. said thanks to ronny and chris. am i still feeling sad over the solo? yes, of cos, becos i felt i could have play it better,i felt i have let someone down despite all the effort i put in but thinking back, i feel i have improved and the solo sounded not bad, except for two mispitched notes. the whole experience made me want to continue playing as long as i can.
i guess i came out of this competition knowing that if i set my mind to something, i will achieve it. it all lies in your attitude and mentality. negativity will only bring failure and only being positive and believing in yourself would lead you to reach your goal. i guess the breaking point came when yuxuan was fustrated with me and put me down during that rehearsal. ph is right that it was a blessing in disguise cos it pushed me to work harder.
i have to thank everyone for their encouragement and advice all these while. thank you huimin, you are my light in the section. you pulled me up when i fell. without you, i'm not sure if i was still playing for the com. thank you ph, for your advice and encouragement. you are always the wise and understanding one. thank you yuxuan, for teaching me and pushing me. i must have been a very difficult player to teach. i hope i did not let you down. and to all my sympho friends, you guys are the best!! i'm sure we will continue to do well in the years to come. maybe we can aim for the next wmc? : )
21 July 2006 12.15am
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