Things at the office are not that hectic for the past few days but was quite occupied as I have to cover some stuff for my colleague who went on leave.
Met suz for a while after work yesterday to do some last minute shopping. I bought a pair of levis :) at a discount but I can't wear it for CNY as the store is not taking any alteration requests at the moment. I have to bring it back after CNY to alter the length. Then YA came and we walked over to Wisma Atria. At the mrt station, we bumped into edie, our previous bandmate in poly. So we chatted for quite a while and learnt that he started his own events company. Then I realised it was approaching 8pm and made a move first. I went to school to join the symphonians for post concert celebrations at below the loft. So there was everyone...drinking, playing pool....hanging around talking.....mel and sy almost prevented me from drinking, trying to take my cup away but i assured them i was sharing with cher. I noticed cher was a bit blue and she was about to confide in me when the others came over to join us and we started playing the finger guessing game. Before this cher was a bit high already....... after the game, she told me wat happened and I adviced her, telling her my views. She started to cry 'cos she is going to miss this band and seeing her like this, I felt sad too and began to think about myself. Myself and the others comforted her and we continue to drink, talk, take pictures and then toss Yu Sheng! Haha....we continue to play the finger guessing game with last bottle of white wine. Mery was rather touchy-feely when he is drunk....you know like grab my legs, put his arms around others......wierd...They started to play twister after all the bottles of wine were finished. And then I just sat at the couch, sianz that my drink was finished. I was just staring into space when mel came over and noticed I was looking glum. I started to tell him wat's wrong.....my job, my life....everything.....is not going well....been trying so hard for the past few months.....and thenI just broke down. And it didn't stop. mel brought me tissue papers and comforting words and then a drunk sy came over and told me not to cry.....but I couldn't stop. All the pain and frustration just came out and I couldn't stop it. They had to bring me out and eil brought me to the toilet to wash my face. When we came out, I saw yx msg me whether i am ok. I didn't see him at the loft at all but knew he must be around. I just sat at the study table outside the loft, staring into space. mel brought me to campus green and a few others came along. We just sat there, me continue to tear and mel consoling me. law, ms and sy were there...se too but went over to ice cold beer after mel told him that maybe its not a good idea to have too many people around me. i didn't expect law to be there...of all people...to offer me words of comfort. I just kept crying really really hard and mel sitting beside me telling me to be strong. How he was once like me...and that changing myself and asking whys will not really make me happy. I think I actually cried non stop for like two hours.....while all this was happenning to me...poor sy was drunk and started puking. Lukily ms watched over her. The others came back from ice cold beer. I saw yx and he talked to me too....everybody seemed concerned. I think this incident made me realised even more that in times like this, I have friends like them whom I can turn to. mel said he was glad I was willing to pour out to him as it showed that I trusted them. We shared cab home, ensured sy got home safely. Before I slept, I smsed my gratitude to all of them......
When I woke up this morning, I felt so damn tired. My eyes were hurting like hell.... It was not that busy at the office but something last minute cropped up. I met suz and YA for lunch and she passed me a cd. Then I headed home, took a nap and then went for a run. Had reunion dinner with my family just now. I hope everyone will have a fantastic chinese new year!
新年快乐！
6 Feb 2008 9.31pm
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