We can't chase happiness

Can we chase after happiness?

I finally realised the answer is no. Remember last week I was upset over a guy who wasn't that interested in me? So I smsed suz and she insisted on meeting me for dinner even though she had planned to meet her bf for movie. We met up to chat and I learned from her that in order to find happiness, you have to let happiness find you. We cannot pursuit happiness because it will not happen this way. You see, I have been trying to search for happiness, looking for the one that I love and will love me back. But it didn't work. I seem to be meeting the wrong guys. By the way, when I smsed suz and told her what was making me unhappy, she had a strong urgency to meet me that evening because there was once she felt unhappy and there was no one to talk to until her friend unexpectedly contacted her for a chat. Suz was reminded of this incident when I smsed her so she knew I really needed someone to talk to.

Today, I met xl for dinner and told her what I learned from suz. She was so touched when she heard what I said. Before today, she has been chasing happiness, looking for the one who will love her. Her mind really opened up after hearing me out. I didn't expect she will have such a reaction but I was really glad my words comforted her. Both of us have been feeling empty lately. We need to find something inside us which we feel fufilled or have good memories of to start off being happy or statisfied with ourselves. It has been a day about learning to be happy. This afternoon, I was watching an episode of the Oprah Winfrey Show on cable tv and the topic was about the pursuit of happiness. Oprah invited an expert on this issue and he suggested that people who are not happy with their life can improve their situation by letting go of their past and be kinder to themselves and to the people around them. It was enlightening to watch that show.

Yesterday (Thursday) was my last day at work. I won't miss the place and the job but I will miss my colleagues as it was these few people that made my time there better, especially on sucky days. A lot of people didn't know that I was leaving. When I was saying goodbye to a director from another department, she commented that I am a person who will maintain good working relations at the expense of achieving work targets. I didn't know I was percieved as such but I guess I could look into this as I move to my new job. I think it is more important to complete work task than maintaning good colleague relations. However, good working relationship is also a neccessity at the workplace in order to get your work done. There have to be a balance between these two aspects.

A brand new start on monday.......
23 Aug 2008 1:12am