Flaws....

I had a long talk with my boss today...

We trashed everything out. I admit I was negative and rude to her on some occassions, including the incident where I flared up at her when we were rushing out the collateral. I apologized and was thinking whether I have been over-sensitive at times. Maybe I was and I was willing to learn from my mistakes and make everything work out. But if I could admit my flaws, I couldn't understand why throughout the entire trashing session, my boss refused to see her own flaws and admit it. The open communication that she claims is ever-existing in the dept is not convincing me. Both of us saw that we have different communication style and different approaches to work and solving problems. But still, she is in denial as to why I am so fustrated with her. She feels that I am the only one in the dept having communcation problems and issues with her but I beg to differ. We didn't really end the discussion with a conclusion as she had to rush for an appointment. But as I walked to the station, I was thinking to myself where have I gone wrong? One thing for sure, my boss is one of the major causes of the entire problem and I also have issues myself. I guess I wasn't trying hard enough. I should be more initiative and be daring enough to prove myself that I can do it. I want to work on my flaws. But this has to go two ways. If I am doing everything I can to make this dept work and my boss still chooses to be selfish and not being open to effective communication within the dept, things will still be as bad as ever.

I'm so tired.....

21 April 2008 10:31pm