a word of thoughts....

in time's grace we find
framed in cloud's breath, hushed in sky
our dreams still, untouched

it's in the future that we find [the reality of] our dreams, so claim it now and dream as often as you can...while you still can

from my dear friend, David Harper.

30 Sept 2008 12:11am

Hectic

I finally got to watched season 3of Heroes. Watched on streaming tv websites which is a bit jerky. It was great. My favourite character is Peter Petrelli. :)

The past week has been extremely hectic. My dept had to move to a new work area within the office, downstairs actually, so my colleague and I were busy moving stuff and doing our work at the same time. There was so much packing done and lots of stuff to sieve through and throw away. On Thursday, my manager talked to me again. She will convert me to a permanent position after all and want me to take over a task that has been vacant for a while. I wasn’t very keen in the task but I thought that maybe I can give it a try and at the same time, help the entire dept in whatever marketing activities are going on, especially during peak period where some of my colleagues will need the extra assistance. My manager called it “floating” around the dept which is helping everyone and I think I will still learn useful things by doing some miscellaneous stuff and handling the duty that my manager wants me to be in charge.
I do worry whether I am trying too hard to deliver and if I have produced good performance; my manager might deem me a failure if I made a mistake. She has high expectation and said unless I did terribly, I should be fine. She answered my queries as to why she always refers me as a temp staff in her correspondence to everyone. She told the whole dept that she will convert me to permanent at a short meeting on Friday.

Ended work late on Friday and then went to school to attend sym’s AGM. I have not been attending their past few AGMs so this one is probably special. Yx was there as well and being the only two alumni there, the feeling was weird and nostalgic. I remembered during my exco’s AGM that year and I was also standing there presenting my office and handling over to the new leader of the office of library. I left after the AGM ended as I had to work the next day. I went back with Au and we updated each other on the train. She is taking a break from sym. I need to quickly practice my part for the upcoming performance. So stressful with work and band!

Yx, 3sa and al came for my event on Saturday and we went to catch Painted Skin, a Chinese movie about a fox spirit who falls in love with a war general and wants to get rid of his wife so as to become his wife. It was a touching story and it taught me that one will really sacrifice a lot for love. It is also possible to fall for someone else when you are already married but still feel committed and responsible to stay in the marriage instead. I guess love will fade in a marriage as time goes on and it takes more than just love to stay together.

Met someone quite cute in the office recently. Well, I just see how things will progress as I continue my work there. :)

28 Sept 2008 9:29pm

Revelation

Time really flies at work. With so many things to handle, every work day just passes by with ease. I got to know my boss better with every week and this week, I came to realize what high expectations she has of her staff. We had an event yesterday and due to a miscommunication and partly my fault as well, the guest list wasn't as long as she expected and she was angry with me for not informing her earlier so that we could ask the sales dept to contact their friends and clients to come for the event. I thought she would do it as I heard her mentioning she has asked the sales dept to stand by when we met up with the event host last week. So when she realised the problem on thursday morning, she told me that I am not needed to help out at an event that afternoon. Instead, use the rest of the day to gather more people for the event. Towards the end of the day, I updated her with the numbers. That night, she called me to ask about the final rsvp and explained why she was angry and I understood and apologised to her. At least she bothered to tell me why she was disappointed and told me to learn from this incident. I learned from my mistake but also came to a view that no matter how much you do or how hard you try at work, it will never be enough for your boss.

Yesterday at work, she seemed to be in a bad mood and actually flared up at me and my colleague when we were late in meeting her at the carpark to go for the event. I felt that she didn't have to react like that although I was sorry that we should have left the office promptly. The event went well and I thought it was not bad although the sales target was not met but the event client told me that the objective of creating awareness for the store was at least achieved. Bought a nice pair of earrings but I still have not gotten a new bag. My bag is spolit. :(

Hope the new week will be better. Another event next week and I hope it will be successful.

So tired......

21 Sept 2008 1:34am

You can't have the whole cake I guess....

Been three weeks at my new job. It has been stressful but I actually enjoy the job scope althought there is a lot of work to do. Lots of coordination, planning and anticipation required. My manager told me that her assessment of my work performance so far is not bad and most likely she will convert me as a permanent position. She still needs time to find out what are my strong and weak points and as long as I do not fail her badly, I will be fine. I felt really encouraged when I heard that. Now I'm just waiting to be confirmed and will continue to put in my best performance. Colleagues are not bad although there are some unfriendly ones, like this designer who is always so grumpy, talks a bit rude and can't seem to get some things right.

Yesterday my company had an event and I helped out at the reception to receive guests and checked their names from the RSVP list. Of course, there are some who claimed they rsvp but are not on the list and some who said they are friends of someone. There was this caucasian guy who is not on the list, gave some company name which we didn't hear of and some guy nearby shout across that he is with him but we don't know who he is. After some probing and trying to explain nicely that this is an invitation-only event, the caucasian guy asked back whether I have anything against americans, is it that I dislike george bush. I was like ??? what the hell? I am just doing my job and I told him I am not against him for anything, just want to prevent gatecrashers from entering the place. My colleague who was with me then told me to just let him in and told him we are not upset with him for anything. She just want to prevent a scene. Sigh....some people should show basic courtesy when turning up for events and don't take things badly if they are refused entry. Just ask nicely.

13 Sept 2008 10:07am

Thank you Stranger!

I was out running earlier.

I thought the rain had stopped so I went for the run even though there was a teeny weeny drizzle but I thought it would stop. It didn't and got heavier when I was like 3/4 of the way. As I was trying to rush back, I was stopped by a commotion outside the primary school near my place, along the sheltered pathway. There is actually a construction going on at the school and a huge construction vehicle (those long lorries that transport construction vehicles like forklifts and cranes) was trying to reverse into the site but ended up blocking the entire road. I was soaking wet and with the passer-bys and the super long vehicle blocking the way, I couldn't pass through so I just stood there and wait while the contruction workers figure out how to get the driver to manoeuver the truck in.

And then, a bespectacled guy who was standing next to me and saw that I was soaked through, offered me a pack of tissue and showed a gesture to wipe my wet face. I was surprised and turn him down at first but he insisted so I accepted the kind offer. So we just stood there and watched the entire drama where the super long vehicle struggled to reverse in with all the other motorists blaring their horns impatiently. All this while, I know this guy was looking over at me but I didn't really looked at him. Guess I was a bit embarrassed being soaked in my sports singlet and shorts. When the road was cleared, all the passer-bys who were standing on either side of the long truck started walking pass the truck. I turned around and thanked him for the tissue. He smiled and I ran back home. What surprised me in this incident was that the guy bothered to offer me tissue paper after seeing that I got wet in the rain. I mean, many singaporeans are not that kind or helpful even when they see someone could need some assistance. I was running so of cos I would be sweaty and with the rain, it made things worse as I got wet all over. Any one who saw me would think its ok or jus simply ignore me. I just wonder what made that guy to bother to offer me tissue paper. Everyone was just standing around, watching and waiting for the road drama to be over and then head on their way. Would anyone bother to see who was standing beside him and see whether he needs help? But I guess he is one of those helpful ones who don't mind lending a hand when he sees one.

Thank you Stranger!

3 Sept 2008 9:55pm