Searching..

Band practice resumed on friday after the one-month exam break. Everyone looked relaxed and happy. I am so out-of-practice and absolutely neeed to get back to top form again. Spoke to ed about the possibility of missing three practices in june. It could be a concern if I am playing the solo which I guess it is. Ei and the others decided to go to her place for a mahjong session. Mel said I could take turns with him as they have eight players but I decided to go home instead. Also didn't meet up with jy and the others who were also in the area. Guess I was tired.....

There was a career fair going on at Suntec City this weekend and suz and YA went to check it out with me. There were a few companies that I was interested so I visited their booth to apply for the postitions that are relevant to me. Overall, I wouldn't say this is a great career fair as there were a lot of insurance compnaies, education groups offering foreign degree programs and government bodies like SAF, Navy and Air Force which attracted a lot of people to their booth. I think their selling point is the stable income. We went to this particular company where I spoke to a lady, expressing my interest to apply for a job. We spoke briefly and handed her my resume. As we left, a guy from the booth next door approached me, asking if I was interested in apply for their company, as he saw me applying for a position at the other booth. I looked at the booth title where he was and declined. Financial advising is definitely not my cup of tea. As we walked further, YA met a friend who is also with an insurance company and he got suz to try out a personality test which will determine whether an individual has the traits to work as a financial advisor. suz made a point that is true. If you have the personality traits of a financial advisor (eg, outgoing, friendly, full of drive....) it does not necessary mean you are suitable to work in this line. YA's friend went on to explain that this particular quiz is just a general one and there is a more in-depth analysis from another test to determine the suitability of the candidate. suz has to go down to his company on a separate day for a dinner to receive the result of her quiz as they need to churn out the results. Well, to me its just another gimmick to attract people to join this line. I'm sure suz has something else in mind for her career, not really a sales job in financial advising.

We left after walking a few rounds and saw that there was a health & beauty fair next door by Lianhe Wanbao. As we walked in, I saw my boss at the stage audience area and I immediately sulked. How "lucky" I was to see her there. I don't think she saw me as she was busy talking to someone and I pointed her to YA and suz, showing them how my terrible boss looks like. Suz then told me the story about her friend who suffered under a female boss and was very unhappy, just like me, and tendered her resignation before she got a new job as she really wanted to take a break. She couldn't take the backstabbing and nastiness of her boss and colleagues any longer and was already prepared to take the risk of not being able to find a job soon. I wonder if I will end up like suz's friend...

We went to catch a funny and lame movie, Harold and Kumar - Escape from Guantanamo Bay. The movie is hilarious and lame with all the crude and sexual jokes. I wonder do people really organize a bottomless party privately......hmmm......

After the movie, we went to a Why Pay More like store. Both suz and I bought a new pair of running shoes. As I have a budget contraint, I had to settle for a pair that is not aesthetically nice but it serves its function well and I am comfortable in it. : )

Today I read in the The Sunday Times about a comment from the editor on the undesirable traits of Singaporeans which are selfishness and fear of confrontations. They prefer to whine to their friends about their unpleasant encounters such as poor service from sales staff and people who talk loudly into their phones at the cinema while the movie is being shown. This article reminded me about my boss who is afraid of confrontations and prefers not to get involved in any trouble. I agree with the editor that we should act and not just complain when we are unhappy with certain matters. Lodge a formal complaint if you are displeased with the service at a store and tell that person off for speaking loudly into his phone during a movie. Like the editor said, if we bother to act on issues that we have issues with, then there will be less unhappiness and anger around us. So true.....Singaporeans should dare to intervene in matters when appropriate and not be an ostrich, hiding his head into the ground.

Looking forward to wednesday......

27 April 2008 7:39m

Had another long talk with my boss yesterday. In the end, she told me she will only confirm my appointment if I can accept her working style! I was taken aback. She told me to think about it over the week and let her know next monday. My colleagues said she is too much. Confirmation should be base on my work performance and not whether I can accept her working style and communication preferences. She is kind of "threatening" me. In order for me to receive my confirmation, I have to accept her working style. If I can't accept her, she is implying that I have to leave, even though she did not literally say this but this is what she implies. This morning, as I left for work, I have wanted to tell her "yes, I will accept the way you are in order to have my confirmation processed". But after hearing my colleagues' advice, I decided not to. They are right that I should not give in to her demands. If I agree to her request, I will not be able to express my views/opinions that go against hers in future whenever there are problems at work. Sigh....I can only continue as an unconfirmed staff until she is willing to give me my confirmation letter without me telling her anything. I have never met a boss like her. She absolutely don't appreciate me at all.



Should I stay or should I go?
23 April 2008 10.22pm

Flaws....

I had a long talk with my boss today...

We trashed everything out. I admit I was negative and rude to her on some occassions, including the incident where I flared up at her when we were rushing out the collateral. I apologized and was thinking whether I have been over-sensitive at times. Maybe I was and I was willing to learn from my mistakes and make everything work out. But if I could admit my flaws, I couldn't understand why throughout the entire trashing session, my boss refused to see her own flaws and admit it. The open communication that she claims is ever-existing in the dept is not convincing me. Both of us saw that we have different communication style and different approaches to work and solving problems. But still, she is in denial as to why I am so fustrated with her. She feels that I am the only one in the dept having communcation problems and issues with her but I beg to differ. We didn't really end the discussion with a conclusion as she had to rush for an appointment. But as I walked to the station, I was thinking to myself where have I gone wrong? One thing for sure, my boss is one of the major causes of the entire problem and I also have issues myself. I guess I wasn't trying hard enough. I should be more initiative and be daring enough to prove myself that I can do it. I want to work on my flaws. But this has to go two ways. If I am doing everything I can to make this dept work and my boss still chooses to be selfish and not being open to effective communication within the dept, things will still be as bad as ever.

I'm so tired.....

21 April 2008 10:31pm

Reset or go?

I have been thinking whether I am happy with the way I am right now.

Its been two years since I graduated from university. At that time, finding my first job was pressurising as I keep hearing news from my school friends of the high salaries that they are getting (that's because they got jobs in the financial sector and being a marketing major fresh grad, the pay is not that great in this area). Eventually I got a marketing executive job at a local company. The pay was not great. I had no choice but to settle for something as my job search had went on for months. Its been two years since I graduated and I'm in my fourth job now. I went down from a marketing exec to marketing assistant in my previous two jobs as I changed line. I didn't mind the "set back" as I took it as a stepping stone to work in the industry that I have always loved.

But things didn't work out. I started feeling fustrated in my work as I felt that I am not learning new skill sets. My job scope is simple, mundane and not challenging enough to earn me the experience that I need in a marketing career. So I left and went into a different industry (it is still a marketing position), thinking maybe the industry that I love is just a job, working in any industry is still a job at the end of the day. Of course, you must like what you are doing so that is why I still dwell in marketing. My friends told me that in building my career path, it is not wise to degrade in levels as you work through the years as employers will have doubts in your career goals, seeing that you are unclear in what you want. However, I am not happy with my current job. I thought this industry could also be challenging and interesting but I guess it is not my cup of tea.

I will be working for the next 30 years of my life and I think it is crucial to be happy in my job. Happiness transcends everything...I feel...So if I ever receive a job offer in the industry that I want but in a lower position, should I go for it? Well, why not? I will definitely suffer a cut in my salary. But having stumbling all over for the past two years, I think it wil be good for me to make a fresh start by starting from scratch. Anyway, in a recent conversation with a manager, he told me that I can still make a switch as it has not been that long since I graduated. I think I should live my life for myself and not live by others' expectations.

I am reflecting on this because after reading an article that I came across last week (Ignatius Low, Hitting Life's Reset Button, Lifestyle, The Sunday Times 13 Apr 08) I am afraid that I won't be happy with the way I have lived my life if my life ends suddenly.

Despite the pain in my right knee, I still went for my usual bodycombat class this morning (yes..I'm stubborn..). And after the session, I think I need to take it easy....at least for this week as the pain seem to have worsened. On a friend's recommendation, I headed to a chinese medical hall to buy this particular ointment which he claim cured his knee pain as well. Tjin Koo Lin, its called...I hope it works....: )

pain, pain, go away......

20 Apr 2008 8.59pm

Not at peace...

Thursday was the most dreaded day of all for the the past two weeks.

Our peaceful and serene office got broken when my boss came back from her leave. As usual, I got a call from her first thing in the morning to attend the briefing for her behalf as she said she has "lots of things to clear, to busy to attend the briefing". In the afternoon, she dragged me along for a meeting at the corporate office. I noiced that she wasn't paying attention at the meeting and looked bored and uninterested. My colleague was right in telling me that the sole purpose of bringng me to the meeting was to listen to the meeting for her so that she can know anything by asking me, assuming that I will listen and know everything that went on at the meeting. How terrible! Never have I seen a department head as irresponsible and lazy as her. At the meeting, everyone asked relevant questions at appropraite points. For her, she was uninterested. Another dept head who came with us gave me puzzling looks on why my boss looked so bored in the meeting as there were several good points to take note of. Then suddenly at the later half, she asked a question that was slightly out of point and it showed that she doesn't know what the presenter was talking about. At one point, she even used a handout to hide herself as she primed and fussed over her hair with a mirror. How embarrassing.......

The usual crap went on at work the next day. A director from another dept brought to our attention that our email signature was missing of a corporate tagline in addition to our promotional tagline. When she emailed my boss about this, she just replied with an email signature instruction attachment and just shirked the responsibility to IT dept, saying that she instructed them to handle this some time ago. I felt she should inform everyone and emphasized on the corporate guidelines for email signature to make IT's job easier. As usual, she chose to ignore this. Its exasperating to work with her......

The comforting part for the past few days was meeting mel, sy and cher for dinner yesterday. They finished their exams this week and all of them looked relieved. We went to New York New York at City Link. I had the Philly Cheesy Steak Sandwich (If I remember correctly....). Its nice but the fries are salty and soggy. Mel didn't sleep at all the previous night and looked tired. I was irritating him with everything that I said in response to him......so funny : P. After settling the bill, we laid back in our seats thinking what else to do. And we continued by standing outside the restaurant still having no idea where to go. We walked slowly to the mrt station and then decided to go to mel's place to play mahjong. Talking, joking and laughing all the way to his place......when we sat down to play, mel's aunt mentioned that a guy who plays mahjong against three girls will end up losing to all. And its true! He lost to the three of us...oops....We stopped at 南风 (took two hours to play!) and decided to call it a day. Everyone was tired....

Have a nice weekend...my right knee still hurts..:(

19 April 2008 9.27pm

Heed the Pain

I was reading the papers yesterday when I came across the term "Stress Fracture". It happened to basketball star Yao Ming when he had to undergo surgery on his left foot due to stress fracture, caused by extensive exhaustion from playing. Stress frature is not like a fracture or breaking of the bone but is caused by constant trauma to the bone with insufficient rest and repair and this causes the bone to weaken over time. According to the article (The Sunday Times, Lifestyle section, "Bones Feel Stress of Bad Break", 13 April 2008, P.9), stress fracture is most often caused by an increase in the intensity or impact during exercise and improper protection and support from your shoes or equipments used. Besides high-impact exercise, people who are obese, tall in stature, wear heels, have irregular menstruation or suffering from osteoporosis and poor diet are also prone to such frature. I started to worry a bit when I finish reading the article as I have a nagging pain in my right knee for the past two weeks. Its not very painful and it doesn't hurt when I walk. But it hurts when my right leg is turned a certain angle or when I moved or get up after sitting or standing for a long while. It also hurts when I get up in the morning and after my gym class and running. I should have change my pair of running shoes some time ago. Guess the support and cushion has wore out and the impact from running has gone to my knees. Prevention is better than cure so I must replace my shoes. Always wear the proper footwear according to the type of activity you are doing, do exercise that strengthens the muscles and take more calcium and vitamin D! Hope I can still run......:(

Also read from the same paper that drinking tea is good for the brain as tea contains a natural compound called catechins. It protects the brain cells from the build-up of damaging protein over the years and this maintains the cognitive ability of the brain ("Give your Brain a Tea Break", The Sunday Times,, Home section, 13 April 2008, P.1). Hmm...lots of readings about health for a day....haha

Watched Street Kings on sat with suz and YA. Keanu Reeves' age seems to have shown in the movie as he looked slightly older than before. I think the last time I saw him on the big screen was in the movie "The Lake House", a romantic love story starring alongside Sandra Bullock. He was really good-looking in that movie....anyway Street Kings is average. Probably should catch it on a weekday to save the money if you intend to watch it.

Looking forward to the day.....

14 Apr 2008 10.05pm

Bad Omen?

Its has been an "eventful" week. As my boss is on leave this whole week till next thurs, I have been attending the morning meetings. So on wed morning, I attended the morning briefing. Everything went as usual.....the new nasty director (the one who has been mean to me) was taking a long time as usual, talking about his department updates until he suddenly made a comment at my department, looking at me and said that the postcard that was distributed for an outlet has outdated information and is of the incorrect size and was totally unlike what he has approved previously. I was immediately puzzled that he has the new postcards already so I just replied by asking him whether all these incorrect postcards are with him. Also, I reminded him that the artwork was approved by him, my asst GM and GM. He insisted the postcards are wrong and has collected them back. My GM just wanted us to make sure that these postcards are taken back and no longer in distribution. As the other directors took their turn to do their updates, I quickly smsed my colleague about the terrible situation that just happened. She replied me immediately that the postcards that the nasty director has are actually old ones! The new ones that were approved are still at the vendor being printed and packed! Instead of clarifying the situation with us, he chose to attack me at the meeting saying that the postcard is crap! (yes, he even used the words "crap things" to describe the incorrect info on the postcard) How rude and unnecessary! Another director was so mad at him for bringing out this matter that she helped to defend me and then walked out of the boardroom 'cos she was fuming. When it was finally my turn to present any updates, I explained to everyone that the nasty director's dept has circulated the old postcards and the new ones have not arrived yet. The nasty director pretend not to hear me and looked occupied in his documents. I was so angry after the meeting, including my colleagues as well. Things did not go well for us that day as this matter was followed by an extremely unfriendly and rude email from nasty director. We were infuriated even further!

Later that day, I learnt from my colleague that she had a bad dream the previous night. She dreamt that my boss has ordered the three of us to go to her place to pick up a document file and bring it to my GM as she is away on leave. We went to her place and saw a huge antique cupboard. When we opened it, there were rows and rows of archived files and then we took the one we needed. My colleague continued saying I was the one who mentioned that we should get back to work and then I tried to close the cupboard. But the doors wouldn't close and suddenly, we were surrounded by "spirits". My colleague woke up immediately after that and could even remember those faces. She consulted a friend who knows something about interpretation of dreams and said that a dream like this would refer to "bad people at work" (in chinese, it means something like 小人在做怪). I was spooked when I heard this as things were really not smooth-going for us lately. And I was attacked by the nasty director that morning after my colleague had that dream the night before. Really unlucky....

Yesterday, I had menstrual cramps and took a day's mc to rest. And I had a wierd dream last night. I dreamt there was a snake in my room and it crawled to the top of my old wardrobe (by the way, my current wardrobe is built in to the wall. The wardrobe I saw in my dreams was my old cupboard from a long time ago...). Dreaming about a snake does not seem to be an auspicious sign. Hmm...I think the fengshui in my office is quite bad because my colleagues and I face a lot of problems at work. And there are the wierd dreams that me and my colleague had...

We cleared out a lot of unwanted stuff in the office today and it looks less cluttered now. Still lots of work to do and I hope to clear most of them next monday. After work, I went to meet jy as she has an extra invitation to an Onistuka Tiger S/S 2008 fashion show at Zouk. Its a popular brand of Japanese streetwear and sneakers. I met her colleagues as well and they were a rather fun and humourous bunch of people, especially this guy who seems to be the joker of the group. We waited a long while to get in and waited..... again for the show to start. In between we took some nice pictures and I was entertained by her colleagues' funny antics. Sometimes, I find these fashion events a bit of a drag as there is always a long queue to get in and the fashion show always starts late. But then again, what's new....

12 April 2008 2:06am

Definitely, Maybe

Its ger's birthday today. Happy Birthday Ger!

Just caught a movie just now with Ljun called "Definitely, Maybe"

The storyline is not bad, not super fantastic but it was meaningful in a way. I won't give away the story here but anyway the movie was about the main character, William, who was telling his love life revolving around three women to his daughter, Maya. William is going through a divorce with his wife. While telling the story, he changed the names of the three women in order for his daughter to guess which of the three ladies is her mum. William said there is a happy ending to the story and his daughter didn't believe it as her parents are divorcing. This is the part that touched me. The happy ending was Maya herself. Having his daughter was a happy ending to William. But this is not the end of the story so go watch it.

But what I learnt from the story is that in life, you have to go through several heartbreaks to realise who the love of your life is. He or she might be with you all these while and you have always like him or her but you never realised it until you lost that person and found them again.

Brought a tear to my eye.......
8 Apr 2008 11:15pm

A Visit from the Past

My colleague gave me these cute biscuits to cheer me up last week :) when I was stress up by my boss...

We celebrated ger's birthday on saturday at a KTV. I couldn't sing much as I was bothered by a cough. Kc came with his gf and all of us were surprised to learn that they got engaged! Kc just finished his Masters in the US and has found a job at a bank in Toyko. His gf will also tag along and find a job there. I was so envious of Kc to be able to get a high-paying job overseas. I wonder if I ever have the chance to work overseas in future. Anyway, it was great to catch up with him after so long and we mentioned that we should gather everyone for dinner before they jet off to Japan. After the KTV, the rest of us headed to causeway point. A few of us competed with each other in a basketball dunking game at the games arcade. Score points by throwing the ball into the basket. Well...I lost....I never really played basketball before my whole life. Captain's ball and netball...yes...and they seem more fun to me. But I do enjoy watching basketball matches. Suddenly, I remembered that I used to watch the NBA series after "O" levels and it was during the period when I was working as a part-time waitress while waiting for my polytechnic term to start. There was a TV in the cafe where I worked and me and my colleagues would be glued to the TV, watching the games until the cafe opens and its time for work. (The Chicago Bulls was the dominating team at that time, not sure about now.....Michael Jordan was still playing then...)Those days working at the country club cafe was quite fun.

Met yh, yx and 3sa for a chat yesterday afternoon and they showed me a chinese magazine which has a detailed horoscope outlook for the whole year in areas like love, money, relationship, career, health...everything! But I needed their help to read and explain some of the terms to me because it was too difficult for me. My chinese sucks! My horoscope tells me that I will have some luck in love this year but I need to be cautious in my behaviour towards the other party. Take the opportunity to know the guy first. I also need to be careful in my expenditure and think carefully before I sign on any written contracts. Hmm.....

My boss is on leave this week so I guess I will enjoy the peace for now....but there are still lots of things to do. I received a call for a last minute request to loan a place for a photoshoot in my company and I realised I actually knew the fashion stylist from my previous job. I was so happy to see her when her team arrived and she was also surprised to see me as well. We greeted each other with a hug! Sigh...the meeting brought back memories of my old job again. My stylist friend brought a well-known celebrity to do a photoshoot at our place. I was glad we were able to let her use the area for a while. We said goodbye and I told her to take care. This short meeting made my day : ) I never expect to see her again after I quit my previous job and I hope this meeting is a sign of better things to come....

7 April 2008 9.29pm

Quiz Time!

My babe sandra made me do this quiz 'cos i was tagged in her blog.....and because it will take me ages to complete the quiz in chinese..I shall answer in English first...sorry sandra....can? haha....I will translate to chinese when I have the time...haha..here goes....

被點到名字的要在自己的博客裏寫下自己的答案，然後去掉一個你最不喜歡的問題再补上一個你的問題，仍然組成20個問題，傳給其他8個人，列出其他8個需要回答問題的人的名字，還要到這8個人的博客裏留言通知對方----你被點名了，被點名者不得拒絕回答問題，完成遊戲的人將會永遠得到大家的祝福。這8個人要在自己的博客裏註明是從哪裏接到的，並且再傳給其他8個人，讓遊戲繼續下去，不得囘傳。被點到名字的人將會得到大家的祝福，並且所有美好的願望都會在不久的將來實現。游戲開始：

1.小时候的理想是什么？

Erm.....I didn't really have an exact ambition but i did dream about being a beauty pagent queen...haha...I know...I do not have the requirements to be one but it was for fun. :)

2.这辈子最快乐的是什么事？

Hmm....I would have to say when I got together with my ex-boyfriend. Yes, although we are not together anymore but I will still remember the happy memories always. We have not keep in touch with each other since but I hope he is doing fine.

3.你覺得，什麽樣的事情可以讓你廢寢忘食，埋頭苦幹？

I guess its for the job that I really love. I don't mind putting in sweat and tears and forgetting meals to get the job done and at the end of it, receive a sense of satisfaction that is well-worth.

4.如果有机会的话，你最想对你讨厌的人说些什么？

You have a really sad life. You are the most selfish person I have ever met. Wake up and go think about it!

5.你最想去哪个地方？

Hmm.....New York and Spain? I would like to visit Ground Zero at New York City where the twin towers got hit and collasped in 2000. I feel that the world has changed to what it is today was due to that fateful event. As for Spain, I like the spanish language and actually learnt the basics of it. I hope to continue to master the language when I have the chance and vist Spain so that I can easily converse with the people there!

6.最受不了自己哪个缺点？

My bad-temper.......and being pessimistic.....

7.如果有不开心的事情，你会怎么办？

As I am pessimistic, I tend to just moped around and sulk when unhappy things happen but I have learnt to try to take things easy and deal with it....Not all the time but I always try harder to be optimistic.

8.做过最可怕的梦是什么？

I dreamt that my mum left us and went to another world....in an accident...

9.五年内比较现实的目标是什么？

I think it would be promotion to a senior executive level and getting a salary amount where I can comfortably support myself and my parents. The other one would be married to the love of my love and have a nice home of our own.

10.若遇見喜歡的人，你會怎樣做？

Try to know this person as much as I could to get to know him better and grab every opportunity to be with him. :)

11.現在最想做什么事情？

Get a marcom job in the fashion retail line. This is the industry where I want to build up my carrer and will not make another mistake again!

12.你最希望你的另一半对你做的一件事？

Just show me that you really love me and I must be able to feel your love. Give me security and assurance and I will be true to you always.

13.最喜歡和另一半一起做的事情?

Erm...not attached now...but if I have a bf, I would like that the both of us cook a nice meal together and enjoy it. :)

14.你最讨厌怎样的人？

Someone who is inconsiderate and disrecpectful. Also people who don't communicate directly with me whenever he or she is not happy with something also irks me.

15.什么情况下，你最容易紧张？

Eh.....when I am facing situations where I do not know very much of the matter at hand and had to actually show that I know what I am doing but looked totally lost in it.

16.你最想为另一半做的一件事情？

Just be there for him in good times and bad times.....especially bad times.....

17.什么人最让你受不了？

Indecisiveness? But I think I am also one....haha

18.最喜欢自己的一点？

I like that I am a responsible person and also a good listener.

19.如果能够让你卸下工作，抛开学习，给你自己放一整天的假，你会...learn something that I do not know how to do which are cycling, rollerblading and getting my driving skills back!

20.觉得人生最重要的事情是什么？

Learn to take things easy.....I guess....

点 名：Anyone who saw this post must do it in their blog...haha.....

4 Apr 2008 10.42pm

: (

Mel said I can be sad....but I cannot be sad for too long.....

trying and trying to get my life back on track...

but why are all these happening?





3 Apr 2008 9.45pm

A Chat can do Wonders....

I think I might have enough of this. I am on the verge of giving up...

For the past few days, we were busy working on the usual work tasks and rushing to get the collateral to print. On Monday morning, I received a pack of brochures where my company was a partner in a international event. As the morning meeting already started, I passed some copies of the brochures straight out from the packaging to my boss who was rushing to the meeting.

When she came back, she was pissed off that I didn't check the brochure beforehand. Our company was not mentioned in it and she passed the brochure around until someone pointed out the omission. As usual, she blamed me for causing her the embarrassment and I thought to myself why didn't she take a look at the brochure first before blindly handing it out, if let's say, I am somewhat to blame. However, how would I know the brochure did not feature us? Its an event brochure that we are participating in so it is reasonable to assume we are in it! She also asked why we have not done an event poster which was mentioned at a meeting last wed. My GM asked about it at the meeting. My colleagues and I were busy with a lot of stuff and she failed to understand that we were still working on it. She was blaming us why we didn't get it done quick. And then she went on nagging at me about the 3rd draft of the collateral, telling me to rush the vendor to send it to us quickly and said she was being nice to help me forward the other draft to the other depts and my GM last friday night. I was taken aback again. Aren't we a team? Isn't it part of everyone's job that we help each other when the need arises? She made it sound like she is doing something that is not under her job scope. Sigh....I was so frustrated that morning with my boss...she was not being helpful at all in getting the collateral done. She just kept going at me and want things to go her way and not understanding our situation at all!

Needless to say, these two days were not that smooth-going at the office. My boss kept making changes even after me and my colleagues have looked though the collateral to make sure everything was in order. This morning, the final copy came in. I told her I have looked through and only minor changes are needed. I send the file to my vendor to get them started on the EDM version. In the afternoon, she wanted to make changes again and I was pissed off why she couldn't make the change in the morning! Worse, she called my colleague down to tell her the changes to make when I could not understand why she can't explain the changes to me instead as I was the one doing the checking and coordination work of the collateral from the beginning. I was really angry and told her that I would greatly appreciate that she tell me things that she need me to do PERSONALLY in future. She replied that since we have spotted some errors, we should change it and even mentioned something back that we are a team! Team my ass! Alright, making any last minute changes to make the collateral look good, I can accept that but I just cannot take it that she can't communicate or talk to me personally on the editing required. Except for a grammar error and sentence structure, there were changes which I felt were not necessary. I have been thinking that if she is more involved in the whole process, which I tried to get her in but she chose to brush it off and made excuses that she is very busy, the copywriting for the collateral could have been better and completed earlier!

Ok....very angry and upset today.....anyway the collateral will be printed tomorrow after much turmoil. After I left the office, I went for an appointment near my university where I had a chat with someone about the industry I am currently in. The meeting left me thinking whether my job suits me or not. As its only been about 2 years since I started working, he told me it is not too late to make a switch. If I can see myself working in that industry as a career for life and really possess the enthusiasm and real interest in it, then go for it. I have to balme myself for making a mistake of leaving my previous job. I seriously want to go back to where I was.

Still searching for the light...no April's Fool joke..

2 April 2008 10.28pm