thoughts...

I miss playing....been almost a month since the band took an exam break. Practice will resume this week but I wonder if I can make it. Too many things to do for the event this weekend but I hope I can make it for friday's practice at least....

Situation at home is not too good....told my problems to cher and I felt so much better. There are many families out there where the relationships are not going well. Same for cher and I was glad I could relate to her when she told me her problems. I only know that I want to move on in my life and take care of whatever matters I can.

I don't want to whine about work but I can't help but wonder why things are so screwed up over here? Things always come in at the last minute and I was pulled into this crap with pieces everywhere and trying to put them together well when it could be done much earlier. I think my brain is dying.....from all these selfishness, irresponsible and uncommitted attitude from other people. My mental strength is going down...I can't process my thoughts as well as before.

It aches when you can't get what you want. Should I just stand from afar and watch, wishing and hoping that it will be mine someday but somehow know or get the feeling that it is not possible, or try to fight for it and not regret for not trying. But......

21 April 2009 10:35pm