Am I in the wrong job?

When we came back on tuesday after the event, my boss sat me down for a post mortem talk. As expected, she was disappointed with my attitude during the period of the event. I admitted I was wrong and reflected on my actions. She said I need to do some recovery with my colleagues and that I was also stubborn and territorial. Yup territorial...what a word. It was a bit shocking that my boss used those words but I know I am in the wrong and I want to make things right. Will have to start by keeping my cool when the tough gets going....

Been a week since I sent my phone for repair. Still no news. Currently I am using an old samsung phone and there were still very old messages stored in there, dated back to 2006. so long ago......anyway on my way home from gym just now, I was scrolling though those really old smses and saw this message from a friend.

"Dun grow old n feel regrets...for things not done, for words not said, for love not shown, life is too short ...do what makes you happy..take care! good nitez.."

It spurned on me that there are still many things I have not done and said. I'm also not sure if I am happy with what I am doing now. Do I like my job? Am I meant to be in marketing? After this period of slogging for the baby fest event, going through those stressful and emotional moments, I did have thoughts of quitting but I know better. A few days ago, I was talking to a colleague about my work. The one thing that struck me was the difference both of us felt about our job. He enjoys his work, like what he is doing. Meeting stressful deadlines for him is just trying his best to perform better, not the nagging thought of having to meet the deadline. Its the opposite for me. Maybe its the culture here or I am not strong enough to handle stress. I like meeting and working with new people and feel a sense of satisfaction when a project is completed successfully. But why is it that I don't enjoy the process?

I went for band practice yesterday. Been absent for a month (since concert).Things don't look good in the band and I am disappointed. Time to have a talk....

8 Mar 2009 1:52pm