Difficult Times

Is there such a thing as a good death? Maybe there is but I am not sure because we don't know what happens after death. Is there such a thing as afterlife? Chinese beliefs say there is but I'm skeptical about that. I'm just reacting to an article that I read by Sumiko Tan in today's newspaper. Yes we all will die one day. Its just a matter of whether the process will be a peacful or painful one. When I read how Sumiko's father died, I started thinking how I will react when such a day arrives. My dad is old and is suffering from several ailments. He often laments how he is leaving us soon and that just annoys me. Because I hate it when he says that. He is a good dad but just like any parent, they get on your nerves sometimes but deep down, you still love them. I don't look forward to it but I know I have to prepare myself for the day when my love ones will pass on. I remember attending the funeral of my girlfriend's mum a few years ago and I felt so sad for her. She seem to be accepting it when I saw her at the funeral but I couldn't help feeling the pain. I imagine how I would feel at my own parent's funeral. Sumiko mentioned in her article that there are four things to ensure a "good death". A good state of health which will minimize your sufferings, existence of family and friends who will care and support you, money to get you the care and comfort that you need in your remaining days and religion to make you feel better. I feel that the second factor is the most important of all as I think it could alleviate a lot of pain caused by the process of dying. I can't do much about my dad's health now but I guess I can help to make him feel better. But I'm just afriad his negativity will make me try less harder. Well, we won't know what wil happen in the future.....

After practice on friday, I hanged out with my sym gang at ice cold beer. It was a fun night as we played drinking games and ate lots (I like the part where we have to take out the little green man from the glass before we drink and putting him back into the glass). C was with us and I know he is still trying to get over his breakup. He drank too much and got drunk. Seeing how upset he is made me recalled my pain. No worries I am fine already. Just that I wonder how I could make him feel better. I told him to try and get his ex back if he really loves her and if she is adament in not starting over again, then he should move on. I hope you will overcome this period, C. You much be strong.

Yesterday met up with Ljun and we watched Burn After Reading. It quite a funny movie, a little lame and maybe not enough weight on the stroyline but I enjoyed it. It also gave an insight on how people will go to great lengths to attain good looks so as to find a life partner. It doesn't work this way. I don't deny looks matter somewhat when it comes to finding a partner but a lot also depends on the chemistry you have with the person. I will never resort to plastic surgery to look good, like what Frances McDormand's character does in the movie. I exercise to stay in good shape and to be healthy. Exercising will actually do a lot to boost your confidence, reduce stress and keeps one looking young.

Bad financial times now. Got to save and spend less....holding on....holding on.....

8:19pm 19 Oct 2008